my healing now its a great night tonight

hey friends and vistors
its me again katie i am doing very well today it is easier to live life now the flashes till come but not near as much i am in a great place today i no longer blame myself jennifer is doingb great i have a new start and people old and new in my life its so great to be feeling better i love u all ty for coming

kci

hey all




i am doing very well its been a whlie i no that but me and my sister r doing great ty for everything i love u all

i am feeling better for today

i am good today i hope for the first time in a year i love my life again my recovery is going very well i joined a new place and i feel like i can live life without deep pain and flashes now the pain is not gone just healing which takes time i have my friends my wife and my family to help me out now i love u all  i have come so far in a year's time i understand that i can start over

kci.og

some of didnt understand my last post here wihch is fine but u say i have not changed at all i have i am happier and hopful for recovery this place gives me hope that i can past this.

kci.og

i am gifted writer time i show my world and make u understand my pain here goes nothin there nothing i hide when i write ever as my heart beats fast tonight this woman is hurt deeply everytime she wakes up she is cut deeply from this pain no1 gets her pain she flashes badly about her usage of meth when she found out she only 16 and as her heart beats faster with each word she types tonight the beats reminded her that her pain is very much real and hurts cuts her soul like a knife deeply like the beat of my heart may stop if it dosent go away the pain seems endless to her and she wares the pain in her eyes no1 understands her life since she has seen her sister high its like her light is gone from her soul and she has been going to online meetings since 07 they help her yes but she wishes her friends understood her pain they dont understand cause she keeps herself but she wishes they understood life she just wants her life back no1 knows what she had to do to just write this tonight she hopes that she will get passed vthis but she cant do this by her self and shes sure she will.

its been a while since i gave an update on here so here goes

i am goin to my kci meetings daily almost now i am startin to feel at home there they truly care for me over there and make me see things more clear and since i really let them in now i feel a sense of healing now they really understand.

kci i am doin much better now

hey my friends im back again im doin much better thank you all 4 your help with this i love u all like my family now your words hit me and made me ask myself somethings like do i want to let this be who i am no so i changed it and its still hard to cope with 4 me but u made me c whats in front of my face i have people that want to help me not just u all because of this i have changed in passed few weeks and i c that i cant blame myself 4 jennifers actions now tyvm and i have accepted erika in to my life and heart and we r movin forword now i think i can get better now ty im back to my old self slowly but i am one day at a time love katherine