kci i am doin much better now

hey my friends im back again im doin much better thank you all 4 your help with this i love u all like my family now your words hit me and made me ask myself somethings like do i want to let this be who i am no so i changed it and its still hard to cope with 4 me but u made me c whats in front of my face i have people that want to help me not just u all because of this i have changed in passed few weeks and i c that i cant blame myself 4 jennifers actions now tyvm and i have accepted erika in to my life and heart and we r movin forword now i think i can get better now ty im back to my old self slowly but i am one day at a time love katherine

kci update on me and erika (my baby girl now)

hey my family miss me yet lol i have a new gf now her name is erika we were frinds 4 a few yrs be4 hand then things werent workin 4 me and my other gf i promised i would wait 4 her be4 this but my old gf is 2 much stress on me and my loved ones friends 2 i have enough stress on me as it is with my disabilities and such etc i have done a 180 trun around since bein with erika but wait it gets better she asked me to ware her promise ring i accepted her offer now u will c the real me

kci im havein a bad day

im not doin well right now i mean im turned my life around since havein Erika in my life now but thats the good part the other part is this the pain from this wont go away it seems to get harder 4 me and erika not on her part but mine i just cant be as close to her as i want to be cause of this she dosent no i feel this way yet i will tell her but can ever really get passed this please help me here katherine eizbeth tyvm

kci ty God i am finally feelin better today is good

hey my friends and family here with me i am finally feel theres hope 4 me in this it still hurts yes but with all of u here i can recovery from this bad time im finally letin the old me shine again and healin is painful and slow but in time i no i'll be fine and if i need a place to go i'll come here lookin 4 help ty 4 all of your repies to me the mean a lot to me yday was just a bad day love u all katie

kci cryin

as i sit here cryin i am hit with everythin that happend with jennifer aka my big sister and as the tears roll i hate this the fact that meth took her away 4 so long and we have her back but shes not the same and the pain from this and everythin elses just to much i need a friend i can talk to no where i can find one

kci y im here

im here to heal 4 me true im on other sites but they dont really deal with this nor understand like u do here glad i found this place if u get worried or just want to get me here my email katiemariahappy@aol.com or katiecundiff@yahoo.com try aol 1st put in subject u r from here love all katie

kci my heart goes out to every1 here this 4 all of u here with me

its katie this is one of my own stories that i think all should read be4 i post it on my story blog im a great writer ok here it is hope it makes u c me as more my friends on kci aka my new family this story here is hard to write and i have ben writein since i was 9 the people here really understand my battle with this reather they r a loved one or used to them selfs i am not sayin nothin bad they r good people on here i love them very much they understand in a way i didnt think people could but they do ty all for helpin me heal my heart i will always be greatful to u all love katie

kci really need to talk so here i go

im havein a bad night just talked to jennifer but i cant bring myself to tell her how this has changed me any ideas on how to its just hard to come up with the words

kci tyvvm im glad im here

ty very much i need to be here so glad to be a member of this lovein site family i am doin much better now it still hurts yes but not as much and if i feel myself start to fall i no u'll be here 4 me ty 4 everythin u do 4 me it means more then words can ever say love katie

kci from my heart

hello all im feelin better ty to all of u and u will c me a lot love u all

kci how i feel now after last night

im feelin a lot better ture im sorry i went off lots on my mind lately but i souldnt have taken out on u guys im comein back from a great loss i lost my grandmother a fewmonths ago sorry all of u have to c me like this just hard yall 1st i lose jennifer and my grandmother too just to much to take sometimes u no but bein here really helps me a lot i just wanted u to understand whats up with me plaz try to remeber im not always this way i wont lie here i feel lost without them but im tryin here but i keep fallin lately love u katie

im back now still have a long road

im back now i have come a long way as u no one day at a time but i c the old me comein back in small ways but i am comein back and i love it now i have see everything in in light even if same thing i c everyday i take time to notice everythin as if it were new and the pain i feel is less now i cant say anythin other then tyvm i am talkin to my friend right now and she is happy to have the old me back true i have changed a lot and i will never be the same and i will always be in recovry here ty 4 all of u upleftin comments and i may not say much in meetings but i love u all very much

me comein back out again

im comein back out again and livein happy slow yes but its a start i have a friend off the site has stood by me trough everythin in my life and has seen me change a little at time im in recovery for me and to give my friends the old katherine back ty so much 4 allowin me to join here and as i get back to my life i will never lose touch here love katherine

the truth about me and what i hide in my heart

the truth is this the pain in life from jennifer's meth uses its real as my heart beat and at night im hunt my the images and scared to death of relivein with my little brother with his drinkin and drug uses too but people dont see the pain u do herei really need my life back like now but i wont rush this ty u all love katie

my new day

this post will change my life cause the longer i stay here i start to feel better i start to understand y i feel this way i still have a long road ahead me but theres somethin u must no be4 i joined here i was not wantin to be here i just gave up in a way i shut people out and got mean i didnt c much point of bein here but now i do but i also need u more then ever now i just lost my grandmother last thurday so it means the world to me right now to heal i just ask that some stop by and check no me ty

my mind set since i joined here

i was very lost when i came here but now i love it here we r like family here and im startin see people do care about me
im a writer as u no by now well this is 4 yall as i start healin here under the care of the staff and friends too i am a new preson then when i came in here its not how long u stay in drakness that matters its noin u can get out with the help of friends that matters and to all my friends that didnt come out in time i love very much thanks to the staff and friends 4 savein me i love u always kate.

thank u all of u

hey all
its me katie thanks 4 your help with this and i will never forget it
this is 4 all of u
this is from my heart hope u like it

my feelin right now

i no this will get read so who ever read it no im feelin like hell and i need to talk to some1 hell any1 at this point im scared right now my feelin r scarein me so if u run across this im not jokein my mind is racein and my mind set is scarein me a lot some1 any1 help me!

i need help with this

i need help with this cause im lost from this and still in a dark place right now can in ever get passed this it seem to be such a huge prob with me and i feel as if i am fallin down and theres no end of this fallin i am holdin up the best i can but it just a matter of time be4 i fall apart again this is hard 4 me to hadle by myself i cant do that! i am just so lost from this its like im not here and im livein someone elses life almost like im in dream i cant wake up right now i miss bein happy i hope i get the help i need soon its just really missed me up in ways i cant say in words but im sure u understand that here i just dont no where to turn right now so im here 4 help to feel better about this.

my bad night

i had a bad night cause i cant get over this at least not alone thats y im glad im here right now as i have said before i am thankful 4 this site and there help to me with this they r great people here and even if i feel alone i no i can count on them thorgh this hard time i wish i could tell my friends whats whats goin on but i cant my meetin here help me more then words can say i love it here in way im free of judgements and they get it not only that but there livein this too so is almost as if i have known the people here my whole life and i headed to heal i no my friends here will help memany nights i cry cause i feel so lost and alone too its like im in a dark places right now but with the people here i can finally let go of this thank u all i love u all.