kci im havein a bad day

im not doin well right now i mean im turned my life around since havein Erika in my life now but thats the good part the other part is this the pain from this wont go away it seems to get harder 4 me and erika not on her part but mine i just cant be as close to her as i want to be cause of this she dosent no i feel this way yet i will tell her but can ever really get passed this please help me here katherine eizbeth tyvm